Oh, and I really really hate your H. Almost as much as I hate myself. I can't believe it took me 20 years to figure out what sex is like for Mrs H. Same as it is for you. I wonder if your H will ever realize what he is doing. Just because you remain silent and motionless does not mean that he will never figure it out.

Then again, I understand why you don't want him to know. If he stops having sex with you, he becomes the martyr. And if he doesn't stop, you would be having painful sex with someone who knows it is painful. Dear God, that would be incredibly awful.

It is truly amazing the mental prisons we can build for ourselves.

Solutions? There are none. There are decisions.