Our loved ones know us well. My belief is he wanted you there. He knew you needed to be even though you didn’t. It’s unexplainable to us, difficult to understand, but I find a comforting feeling knowing that even though they are no longer physically present, they are all around us spiritually. They never leave us.
Carry that comfort and love with you everywhere you go. Live the life they would want you to live. They will live it through you.